Sept. 29th, 2009 - My life in Male Chastity Device

Sept. 29th, 2009,

Yesterday DD asked how my food was going, meaning was I over eating as usual. When I told her I've been screwing up I asked her for some guidance, suggesting to her that a few standing orders could be in place for me. She told me not to eat bad and that I had to give up Mayo 100%. I was very please to hear how easy it was for her to speak so strong and command I do well. I'm not perfect, but when this command comes from the woman I love, it makes me want to do well for her. It makes me want to well for me so I can be healthier and be there for a long time to come.

That night I had a salad for starters and then went to get a sandwich. When the man behind the counter asked what I wanted, in that moment I drew a blank face. My normal response was a Tuna Wrap with heavy mayo. I stepped out of line and said I will be back. Outside I went to call my wonderful DD for advice. This in itself is an amazing feat for me. To ask for help before I screw up. I asked if I could have tuna? After a moment she said no and explain that tuna has mayo mixed in and that this could be a trigger. Without fuss I said ok, which is also a new thing for me. When told to do something I use to do what is called top from the bottom. This means I use to try and tease, or come up with an excuse, or try and word things in a certain way to try and get it the way I want rather than what is being directed towards me. Only after given up full control and learning to simply say that one work OK has things gotten better. I don' have to think about stuff, I only have to DO.

Somehow moments later we where talking about the makeup that was stowed on board for me the last time my wife DD was on-board. I guess as a reward I though it would be fun to put some on after eating well. I jokingly said I would take pictures for her and to my surprise she said she would like that. I simply said OK (with a HUGE grin on my face). That was one OK that was very easy, lol.

She told me that since I walked that day and ate well that afternoon and night that I could have a piece of this incredible chocolate melting cake with frozen yogurt. I was please I was allowed but after a few moments I thought to myself that without it I would be better off. It is high time I start treating my body as a machine that carries me around in life and with great care my machine will run longer. We only have one vessel in this life, and it's time to take care of it. With my decision not to eat the cake DD was please and pleasing her always excites me to no end. I am very blessed to have her commands and guidance in something I want so bad.

Instead of the sandwich I had fish and rice and put out a side dish of fish for the Fairies. Something my lovely DD told me to do and I do so without question. I will say doing this action made me feel good in knowing I was sharing. Since this has all started being more given has become apart of this experience and it feels wonderful. I even gave her the most delicious looking piece of fish I could find. I hope she was happy with it.

After I ate it was time for the fun part. I could not get to my cabin fast enough. I was hoping to put on the make up and take some pictures for DD before she went to bed. Me putting on make up is an interesting task to say the least. I had very little clue as to what the hell I was doing. I did my best which was not very good, then I took a bunch of pictures and started up a chat with DD on-line. I was ecstatic that was she still up. I picked the best three and set them. At the end of my photo shoot I even took some lipstick and wrote on my forehead (backwards for me) "DD RULES". I think that was her favorite picture. Not to sound crude but the thought of being her property excites the living hell out of me.

During our chat I put the cam on so she could see my work as we chat. Not sure if this was fun for her or not but I was excited to display my devotion to her with my "DD RULES" forehead. In the end of my chat. I could help but to ask a couple questions on her thought of our chastity play. I asked if she knew how soon I would be getting locked up when I was home and she responded with, I having thought about it. and then I asked if she gave any thought to how long I would be in my chastity for without orgasm? She replied in a joking way (I think), perhaps Christmas. The next thing I wrote was "OK". I'm a little nervous at this, but at the same time I'm way more excited at this. I believe it would be an amazing journey to see what would happen in my life to not have one single orgasm for 11 weeks (Oct. 9th - Dec. 25th is exactly 11 weeks). My guess is I would learn amazing amounts about myself & about my love for my wife DD. I believe I will live with a much higher spiritually space within myself, I believe I will begin to learn what true feelings really are. No more being able to suppress, just living life following my loving guide, my arms in the air surrendering my control.