Nov. 4th, 2009
It pains me to say it but I stated in my last post I was away for work without my chastity device on and long story short I cheated.
I tried another self prostate massage and had a little bit of luck but mind you it was very difficult to do myself and only left me extremely frustrated. A couple hours later I found myself edging myself. I would make myself get to the edge of cumming and stop, and then repeat this process. I sincerely did not want to cheat. But sure enough I got to close to cumming and without touching myself after being so close to the edge I came. I immediately felt guilt. It actually made me feel guilty for the next day and a half or so, until I was able to tell on myself to my wife DD. I felt like a muttering idiot. Her response was somewhat mild and simple ask what was I thinking? Why would I edge myself like that? I came up with a couple of lame excuses, but for the most part it simply felt good. I still don't know if there is any consequences to my actions since we did not discuss it much more. I guess I'll find out. She did mention a month long sentence locked up in my chastity, but I also asked about making love in the near future and she said soon. Not sure what to expect. Perhaps it's making love without my orgasm but honestly not sure how that one would work seeing my lovely DD isn't that much into receiving oral stimulation. I'm a little confuse on what's to come and only time will tell.
Meanwhile I am back into my new and improved chastity. The glue seems to be holding well into place and the chastity seems to be staying comfortable thus far. I woke up last night twice with erections and was able to relax, calm down and get back to sleep fairly easy. I think it helps just knowing that masturbating was simply in no way an option. I'm not perfect but I am trying. I'm just happy my lovely DD is still on board with keeping me as her pp even after my screw up.
